Drag, Children, and what the fuck ABOUT Sex?

'Lo. Been a while. And I'm not in a good fucking mood.

I saw a video that just happened to come up in my home feed on YouTube that I didn't know belonged to a conservative woman and of course I end up going to a video that talked about the oversexualization of children. Because, at first, I didn't even know she was a conservative. So I thought this would be a good, sensible conversation.

And, what would you know. I actually agreed with a good...oh, three, five minutes of the video...

Until she started talking about drag queens.

Like a fucking moron.

How. The fucking fuck. Does the oversexualization of children...and drag queens...have anything in common?!

Oh, right. These self-righteous conservative fuckwads would do just about anything—if not anything—to put anything remotely resembling the LGBTQ+ community with the association of pedophilia. I forgot. How silly of me.

So, let's break this down, shall we, and go into why this is fucking stupid.

What is drag?

Guess fucking what? I'm not even going to do any research on what drag is. I'm going to explain it in my own words and then do research on it. Now, I'm not saying that I'm going to get the definition 100% correct, but goddammit, I'll be damn close.

Drag is when one dresses lavishly and/or convincingly in the style of the, for lack of a better term, binary genders, a.k.a. femme and masculine. Essentially cross-dressing, usually if not always ramped up to a hundred, from my understanding. 

So, now, let's look up a definition of drag:

"The term "drag" refers to the performance of masculinity, femininity or other forms of gender expression. A drag queen is someone (usually male) who performs femininity and a drag king is someone (usually female) who performs masculinity."

 —Wikipedia

Yes, I am using the "dreaded" Wikipedia. But it has sources. Look at them yourself if you care so fuckin' much.

So, I guess the one thing I need to mention is that it's a performance, unlike cross-dressing. 

Therefore—

What part of this has any fucking thing to do with SEX, you sad excuse for a human and bigoted prude? You just want to use every excuse you can find to demonize a minority—hell, people you don't "understand", I fucking swear...

There's nothing, absolutely nothing, wrong with introducing children to drag queens and kings—specifically drag queens since you can never give men and anyone traditionally masculine or male doing anything femme a fucking break. 

Again, drag has nothing to with sexuality. It's identity, if anything. A perfectly straight man can be a drag queen and a perfectly straight woman can be a drag king. Drag exposes children to understanding and lessens the social constraints of binary gender and gender identity. 

That's all that's bothering y'all, in the end. Just fucking admit it. 

But don't, just fucking don't, bring sex into this conversation. I'm tired of it. 

Y'all are just scrambling to use any fucking excuse. It's sad and disgusting.

Fucking quit it. 

Stop thinking about children and sex, for the love of all things sacred.

Fuckin' weirdoes.

Get help.

Like, now.

White People™ Part 2

Wow. Y'all are just trying to make 2021 a shitty year, ain'tcha? Not even a full week into the fucking New Year and there's a goddamned insurrection...A full-on white supremacist takeover of the fucking...

I can't even find words to describe what took place yesterday in Washington DC. I have family down there, dammit.

I haven't had much to say in the form of non-personal rants, lately. I'm too exhausted to say much of anything more than that, and I feel other people get the points across with more flavor and sass than I ever could. 

But here's the little bit I will say.

What. The actual. Fuck. Is WRONG with you people?! I'm not about to use the pleasantries that are "deserved"; I think any intelligent white person, which seems hard to come by nowadays, wouldn't be indignant but agreeing with us by now.

You just don't understand it, do you? How this would have gone down if it were a brown-skinned group or a black group who dared so much as think about this? 

Look at the many comparisons to what the Capitol looked like—fuck, what DC looked like—after what happened after George Floyd's death in comparison to what the Capitol looked like yesterday when there was a FUCKING TAKEOVER OF THE CAPITOL BY WHITE SUPREMACISTS. 

I can't even. 

The two can't even fucking compare to one another, but one of these, appearance-wise, is not like the other. Something is missing.

People are crying, scared, over this because of how we are aware of this and how terrorizing it is as a whole. 

Do you understand the gravity behind what happened yesterday? It's fucking history that was made. And not the good type, goddammit, because apparently, 2020 wasn't good enough to go down in history.

Nooo, we have to drag 2021 into this, too.

I'm not so fucking naive that I'm believing 2021 was some "maaagical" number that was supposed to reset everything once it became Jan. 1st. 

But wouldn't that have been nice, hm?

Other countries must have long stopped shaking their heads, pointing and laughing at us and are just downright horrified at this point. Horrified, confused. Believe me, I know. 

But fuck that. Trump let all of this—ALL OF THIS—happen. And now that it's come to the near worst of the worst they NOW want to impeach him, the motherfuckers.

I am ashamed of this country. 

I am ashamed. 

I am scared.

I am sad.

I'm hurt.

I just don't know what the fuck is wrong with American society, politics, or white people anymore. Like I said before, I just can't look at you all the same way anymore. I'm not sad to say this, because I should have stopped looking at you all with rose-tinted glasses a long fucking time ago.

Sorry.

But I'm not sorry.

I'm still not able to mentally do much as far as entries worthy of BBTxx, but...I'd love to have more entries here going forward.

Here's to 2021.

Or some laughable shit like that...

Meat the Eater

Let's talk food, for a moment, shall we...?

Ah, the ol' vegan debate. My. It's gotten worse and worse, nowadays. And it makes absolutely zero bloody sense.

...Heh.

Blood.

Ol' Maggot here is a pescatarian. Yes, that means I eat fish, not meat. But, guess what? I'm almost positive I'd be eating meat at least every now and then, if it wasn't for the fact that I seemingly can't digest it very well. Yep, that is why I stopped eating meat. Now, this was a while ago, several years, so I have no idea what my body might be able to deal with, now. But I don't care to find out, either.

Also, yes. I am well aware that by technicality, "meat" includes fish meat, but culinary-wise, they are two different things, seafood and meat. Juuust putting that out there.

I love vegan food. I am certain I could oh, so easily make the switch to going vegan because of this. Why haven't I, then you ask?

Wonderful question, and it has a simple answer.

I love fish too much.

LE GASPETH! I choose taste over the life of another creature?!

Damn fricking STRAIGHT, I do.

Y'see, I find meat consumption of any kind to be just as natural for humans as it is for humans to eat plant-based foods. I believe animals kept for slaughter should be treated with utmost respect, because, after all, they will be going into our stomachs, our systems. We should take care of them if we want to take care of ourselves.

Now, I've found that this doesn't make any sense to—can I say most vegans? Which confuses me. I don't know if you noticed, but humans have canines and molars. We can eat flesh, biologically. So long as we aren't 1) going overkill on the animals on both land and sea (a.k.a. overfishing, causing animals to go extinct, etc.), 2) treating the animals harshly, in any way, shape or form, or 3) injecting them with hormones and shit that goes along with #2 as well as, in the end, harms us...I don't see a damn thing wrong with eating seafood or meat.

While on this note, I also think it's okay for humans to hunt animals—so long as it's for the sole purpose of eating the animal afterwards. No hunting for the literal "game" of it all, you bastards. Trophy kills and all that shit. 

Why raging vegans are so keen on making people who aren't vegan feel so horrible about something so natural escapes me. Most of you are making yourselves look like self-important assholes to the rest of the world, and that's...really...a shame. Because being a vegan is awesome. I salute you, good human.

But can everyone in the fucking world please come to an agreement on what the real problem is, here? The problem with the food industry when it comes to animals is how they are kept, fed, used, and how all that shit just does a 360-degree turn when it enters our bodies and fucks us up. Not the fact that animals are being eaten.

Animals eat animals. We are just another sort of animal. Don't you dare go into the whole "but we have a conscious/sentience" nonsense for this. We are omnivores; we can eat meat and plants—by nature! We are animals. If you have a problem with that, please, consult your local psychiatrist.

I hear they also have an app for that. 

Pull the TRIGGER

Dear Existence,

Humans are idiots. They like to bandwagon words and phrases because "everyone else is using them". Please erase them.

Sincerely, Mar

Aaah, triggering. This...lovely term has come into excessive use, from my experience, for the past...oh...year or two. Again, from my experience, because I really don't fucking care how long it has been used in this modern, 21st-century, asinine way.

Like so many sacred things and things that were once used for particular, important and serious reasons, the mainstream of society has bastardized and terribly abused the word "trigger". Trigger, as in something that brings up memories and sensations of a traumatizing event. This word used to mean something. Something that was very serious and not to be taken jokingly.

I don't know nor do I particularly care how, but regardless, idiots of our mainstream society got their usurping hands on it and now use it to make light of anything that "seemingly", by their narrowed, crossed eyes, causes someone to throw some sort of fit.

"That person is carrying on in anger because someone on the internet posed something about Donald Trump! THEY'VE BEEN TRIGGEEEERRRED!"

Yeah.

You know who you are.

Idiots.

No, there were legitimate words and reason for that before it all became a joke. Before that word was thrown around to—in such limited form—"describe" someone speaking their mind, expressing themselves and their opinions. Now the word "trigger", which was once specifically used for people who experienced traumas, is used in a disparaging, off-handed way.

Now it's all a joke to you bobbleheads. You don't take people who you deem "triggered" seriously. You brush them off, jeer and mock them, tell them to "calm down". And we're not even talking about people who may have, in fact, been expressing their discomfort over something reminding them of a trauma.

But, of course, none of those people matter when you've jumped the bandwagon—the bandwagon of shameful stupidity, ignorance and cruelty. All that matters is spewing what you heard so-and-so say.

"Because everyone's doing it."

Brain cells; the next few generations are going to be devoid of them entirely, if these are the generations that are going to be raising them.

Like I said in my last post.

I've got a trigger for you right here.

Twirl on it.

The next time you decide some new verbal fad is cool to use, you take that trigger.

Point its figurative barrel to your head.

And please, do us all a favor and pull it.

Congratulations. You've just joined the brain cell suicide squad.

God is an Asshole

Dear God who is a construct,

Why are you an asshole?

Humans revere your name,

Your "kingdom come",

Your will, rarely questioned—

Supposedly on Earth, but is there even a Heaven?

I give today a piece of my mind,

And have no sins I want forgiven

Unlike the "sins" committed by you

That destroy us in our times of trial,

And which created humankind's evil

For humans know not if your existence is true,

Now and forever, until death betrays us

 Fuck you, too.

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...Where, oh, where to begin...?

Hmm hmm hmm...

If god...a god...gods...goddesses...whatever—in this particular vent, since I opened with an Abrahamic, monotheistic prayer, I may as well focus on a God. If God exists..."he" is an asshole. I have been saying this for years. Now hear me out, my reasons may not seem so far-fetched.

Firstly, humans are assholes, as well, for they know not for sure if god or the afterlives even truly, really exist. There is no concrete proof. In the olden days, thousands of years ago, it seemed easier to believe in something. So many miracles occurred, according to the Abrahamic religions. How could anyone not believe what they believe in, at the time? The proof was right there! Or so the stories go.

Following this, why is it that people so firmly believe something to the point that they would willingly kill themselves and/or other people in the name of something they only believe to be true, but cannot prove is true? This sounds more like something that they would keep private, to themselves, and revere in the privacy of their home, or what have you.

I believe God should have kept going with those damned miracles. Maybe we'd live in a much different world than the one we're stuck in, now, and maybe so many people wouldn't die in the name of religion. And I mean real miracles, like the ones told in stories. Seas splitting by the touch of a cane-level miracles, damn it.

Secondly, without these miracles, people somehow kept on making up or finding ways to remake/transform/reinvent/invent religions. To many, because of this and other reasons, religion has become something of a joke, and I completely understand where they are coming from; oftentimes, I think the same thing. When does it stop? When will it end? Why does it need to be? You come into the world learning about all of these things...and you have to choose? Why the fuck?

Following these...inventions...well, of course, this wonderfully fucked-up thing called proselytizing came into existence, and that is when people started dying.

...Oh, I'm sorry, that was happening, anyway, wasn't it? This proselytizing bullshit.

The main bane of human existence: proselytizing.

Long idea shortened: if people stopped trying to convert every. fucking. body to "their" religion, the "true" religion (because doesn't everyone think that about the religion they follow), the world would be a much better place! Wars! Homicide! No! Hello??

Of course, these religions are at fault, as well—regardless of who or what the hell-ever created them. How many conflicts, no matter how big or small, and deaths were caused just because some holy-scripture thumper came about and screamed at how x person and y people were wrong, evil? Needed to die? Should die? Be killed? Warranted? Deserved? EVIL? If the books, perhaps, were worded differently—or even better, if whatever deity ordained these books to their messengers made the bleeding books easier to understand throughout all ages, without room for misunderstanding, without various, confusing interpretations—imagine how many witch-hunts would have been avoided. Figuratively and literally, damn it.

—Or something, damn it all. So many people point to the scriptures and say they are what messes everyone up.

Speaking of books, let's talk about the messages in these scriptures and what the hell it does and can do to people.

Simply put: it fucks them right the hell up, in the head.

From personal experience, I can tell you reading a certain Abrahamic religion's various scriptures and reading about the religious stories messed me up in all sorts of ways that I am still recovering from, today. It's left me bitter, angry, depressed, and entirely fucked up. I don't know what to believe, anymore.

Let's talk about two relevant topics, for example.

...So you mean to tell me someone is going to go to hell just because they love someone? God, damnit, you of all people should know humans need to stop procreating so bleeding much, if it's a question of "because you're not having sex for offspring". No one's hurting anyone! No one's dying because a man kissed a man! No one's losing their hair because a woman kissed a woman! What is happening is that these religious scriptures against such relationships have these same people being murdered and killed and committing suicide because their lives were/are living hells because they loved a person. Or are not "living hells" because. You know. They're fucking dead, now.

...So you mean to tell me someone is going to go to hell because they dress and/or act like the stereotype of the opposite sex? Consider themselves the opposite of what they were born as? Who the hell came up with that brilliant rule? Again, no one is being hurt! No one is dying! Except, of course, because they were killed by some asshole with religious scripture and/or structured social norms infesting their grey matter.

Ah, these good ol' Abrahamic religions, I tell you...

What does it do, to commit these atrocities against innocent people? What sick, fucked-up creator would allow for such a thing? Mindless, senseless...truly unwarranted violence? There is no livable way I could follow any religion that so much as says a bad word about anything like this. And don't get me started about race inequality and gender.

Humans only have their ideals. Nothing more. Ideals. That these people are going here, will have this punishment, will taste Hell—whatever the fuck Hell is—and these people are going there, to Heaven—whatever shite that is.

Humans only continue to proselytize, causing more conflict, more struggles, more needless "trials", when all humankind has to do is leave everyone else the fuck alone if they want nothing to do with their beliefs and lifestyles.

Humans only continue to stubbornly hold on to their beliefs as true for all, when there is no concrete evidence of such thing for any religion.

...Except maybe several Pagan religions. They've been onto something concrete since forever...

...Maybe the world should be Pagan...

So. Why is God an asshole?

Because he lets this nonsense happen. Looks down at us, no doubt, laughing at how stupid and...oh, I don't know...human we are. So pathetically human. Selfish and sheep-like.

Because he allows people to believe they are bad, evil, wrong...for simply existing. That, I cannot forgive. That, I cannot believe. That, I cannot follow. I will not stoop so low into believing I am doomed for eternal punishment just because of the way I am, the way I was born as. No one should have to so much as consider that wretched ideal.

Because, in the end...he allows good people to suffer, not just from external turmoil, but internal turmoil. They are their enemy. They are their Devil.

...And speaking of that ol' bas...

I don't believe in the Devil. Please.

I am the Devil, as far as I'm concerned.

"The Devil" is just another construct, some form of blame people put for their actions, when it's them.

They are their Devil, as I am for myself.

But guess what?

I am me.

I am human, defective.

I've had many chances to commit suicide—heh, God knows how many times I've stood waiting for the oncoming train and considered jumping in front of it. God knows how many times I've stood with a blade at my wrist—vertically, not horizontally. And God knows I could have overdosed on my medication on a damned daily basis.

And you know what the sad part is?

I have only not taken my life because I'm afraid. Afraid that...perhaps...maybe...what if...there is a Hell? What if people who take their lives go there, after all? Though for over a decade, now, I've resigned my fate to end in Hell, I sure don't want to give myself a one-way ticket, either. All because of "if".

And so.

This is why God, if he exists...is a penultimate asshole.