Drag, Children, and what the fuck ABOUT Sex?

'Lo. Been a while. And I'm not in a good fucking mood.

I saw a video that just happened to come up in my home feed on YouTube that I didn't know belonged to a conservative woman and of course I end up going to a video that talked about the oversexualization of children. Because, at first, I didn't even know she was a conservative. So I thought this would be a good, sensible conversation.

And, what would you know. I actually agreed with a good...oh, three, five minutes of the video...

Until she started talking about drag queens.

Like a fucking moron.

How. The fucking fuck. Does the oversexualization of children...and drag queens...have anything in common?!

Oh, right. These self-righteous conservative fuckwads would do just about anything—if not anything—to put anything remotely resembling the LGBTQ+ community with the association of pedophilia. I forgot. How silly of me.

So, let's break this down, shall we, and go into why this is fucking stupid.

What is drag?

Guess fucking what? I'm not even going to do any research on what drag is. I'm going to explain it in my own words and then do research on it. Now, I'm not saying that I'm going to get the definition 100% correct, but goddammit, I'll be damn close.

Drag is when one dresses lavishly and/or convincingly in the style of the, for lack of a better term, binary genders, a.k.a. femme and masculine. Essentially cross-dressing, usually if not always ramped up to a hundred, from my understanding. 

So, now, let's look up a definition of drag:

"The term "drag" refers to the performance of masculinity, femininity or other forms of gender expression. A drag queen is someone (usually male) who performs femininity and a drag king is someone (usually female) who performs masculinity."

 —Wikipedia

Yes, I am using the "dreaded" Wikipedia. But it has sources. Look at them yourself if you care so fuckin' much.

So, I guess the one thing I need to mention is that it's a performance, unlike cross-dressing. 

Therefore—

What part of this has any fucking thing to do with SEX, you sad excuse for a human and bigoted prude? You just want to use every excuse you can find to demonize a minority—hell, people you don't "understand", I fucking swear...

There's nothing, absolutely nothing, wrong with introducing children to drag queens and kings—specifically drag queens since you can never give men and anyone traditionally masculine or male doing anything femme a fucking break. 

Again, drag has nothing to with sexuality. It's identity, if anything. A perfectly straight man can be a drag queen and a perfectly straight woman can be a drag king. Drag exposes children to understanding and lessens the social constraints of binary gender and gender identity. 

That's all that's bothering y'all, in the end. Just fucking admit it. 

But don't, just fucking don't, bring sex into this conversation. I'm tired of it. 

Y'all are just scrambling to use any fucking excuse. It's sad and disgusting.

Fucking quit it. 

Stop thinking about children and sex, for the love of all things sacred.

Fuckin' weirdoes.

Get help.

Like, now.

2021

Two entries into the fucking year and here I decide to finally make an official entry about this fucking year.

Oh, dear. 

Where oh where to start.

I've already mentioned the terrorist attack on the Capitol in January. Call it whatever you want. Intelligent minds know the proper words to give that clusterfuck of an embarrassing, terrifying incident. 

No, this is more of a sort of...update, since I've been gone for so long.

COVID-19

COVID is coming back. If fucking idiots continue to be so, we will be back under mandatory guidelines/orders/call-them-whatever-the-fuck only this time, it probably won't be a "guideline". It'll probably be an order and laws, as it was in some places if I remember correctly.

Because I have realized it's come to a point that you can't use the expression "use your head" anymore. Because even when some people are actively using their sad excuses for brains, they're still off. I've seen enough videos and heard enough shit to know.

And it's fucking scary.

Society

Society? What fucking society?

At this point, we live in fucking guilds, individualities, and cults. Did I mention cults? Cults are everywhere. Only this time, "everyone" knows about them.

Society is crumbling. I don't want to be alive in five fucking years. 

I learned of sovereign citizens. Fucking sovcits. Put them in with the incels and karens. Fuck all three. They're dangerous, toxic, and the worst of mortal beings. 

But I have to give sovcits this.

They gave me a 50/50 respect and fear of police. The shit police deal with when it comes to them is just...outstandingly infuriating.

I'll have to do entries on karens, incels, and sovcits...eventually.

Not much to talk about today. I only wanted to let it be known I'm back, truthfully.

Maybe I'll be able to get some eyes on this blog, this time. I doubt it, but I can try.

28-21-20

'Lo. Here's how I'm going to do this.

In honor of giving the Blackboxx a brand new look and rebranding, I've decided to start it over, in a way. The Blackboxx was formed, what, seven years ago, and, fuck. So much has changed since then...

And none of it good.

So. Some of my old entries from 2014 - 2020 will be hidden and rewritten. I was a...very angry person, once. Now, I'm not so angry. Just...tired.

In any case...

'Lo. My name is Mar and I am a pre-transition transmasculine man. I am currently 28 years old, severely neurotic, clinically depressed as fuck, and I have been so for over a decade. I've had suicidal ideation for just as long, and yes, I do take medication for it, but a lot of good fucking help that has been...

What I suppose matters to most people is that I'm alive, I imagine. Be happy?

This is an extremely tedious, neurotic blog, and it's uncouth at best. You will also come to know I happen to sound what most people call "arrogant", but I am so tired of that bullshit that I don't care. This is just how I am and I make it known when and why I think something is worth the ridicule I give it.

I consider myself a devious, diverse, daring individual. A word and world-weaver, a weird, wondrous mind, and a piece of absolute shit all at once. Life is good.

Once, I covered topics according to three "categories" of usernames but now that I am accepting myself as I am, I'm just going to write. I may bring back the old entry logs, but we'll see. Those were fun.

Brief FAQ

• What's with the name?

Mareoquine. The name has a history. I was once a puppet. A marionette. 

❝I lived more than eighteen years of my life blinded by a so-called light, the "light" of Islam, I didn't and still don't fully understand. I was a puppet once, as many of us were, listening to the whims of my elders, told what to do and how and when I should do it. 

For many agonizing years, I wanted to cut my strings, yet never knew how or was too terrorized to do so because of what I had been told since infancy. In honor of that suffering, I once called myself Mareonet. I had spent more than eight years dying inside, lost within myself, and tread the lines between fully suicidal and darkly misanthropic.❞

—Mar Qaroll, via The Maggoty Textbook

The -quine suffix, commonly seen at the end of drug names, is from my acceptance that my attachment and interest in "dark stuff" is kinda addictive. It is also sinful, according to what I've been raised to believe...

Hence, Mareoquine. The Sinful Drug.

• Why the URL style and application suffix?

That's a little quirk I've had for years now from my love of computers and such. Nothing more.

I congratulate you on getting this far.

Either way, for the second time, in less than a decade...welcome to Blackboxx Texts.

You've been warned~♥

White People™ Part 2

Wow. Y'all are just trying to make 2021 a shitty year, ain'tcha? Not even a full week into the fucking New Year and there's a goddamned insurrection...A full-on white supremacist takeover of the fucking...

I can't even find words to describe what took place yesterday in Washington DC. I have family down there, dammit.

I haven't had much to say in the form of non-personal rants, lately. I'm too exhausted to say much of anything more than that, and I feel other people get the points across with more flavor and sass than I ever could. 

But here's the little bit I will say.

What. The actual. Fuck. Is WRONG with you people?! I'm not about to use the pleasantries that are "deserved"; I think any intelligent white person, which seems hard to come by nowadays, wouldn't be indignant but agreeing with us by now.

You just don't understand it, do you? How this would have gone down if it were a brown-skinned group or a black group who dared so much as think about this? 

Look at the many comparisons to what the Capitol looked like—fuck, what DC looked like—after what happened after George Floyd's death in comparison to what the Capitol looked like yesterday when there was a FUCKING TAKEOVER OF THE CAPITOL BY WHITE SUPREMACISTS. 

I can't even. 

The two can't even fucking compare to one another, but one of these, appearance-wise, is not like the other. Something is missing.

People are crying, scared, over this because of how we are aware of this and how terrorizing it is as a whole. 

Do you understand the gravity behind what happened yesterday? It's fucking history that was made. And not the good type, goddammit, because apparently, 2020 wasn't good enough to go down in history.

Nooo, we have to drag 2021 into this, too.

I'm not so fucking naive that I'm believing 2021 was some "maaagical" number that was supposed to reset everything once it became Jan. 1st. 

But wouldn't that have been nice, hm?

Other countries must have long stopped shaking their heads, pointing and laughing at us and are just downright horrified at this point. Horrified, confused. Believe me, I know. 

But fuck that. Trump let all of this—ALL OF THIS—happen. And now that it's come to the near worst of the worst they NOW want to impeach him, the motherfuckers.

I am ashamed of this country. 

I am ashamed. 

I am scared.

I am sad.

I'm hurt.

I just don't know what the fuck is wrong with American society, politics, or white people anymore. Like I said before, I just can't look at you all the same way anymore. I'm not sad to say this, because I should have stopped looking at you all with rose-tinted glasses a long fucking time ago.

Sorry.

But I'm not sorry.

I'm still not able to mentally do much as far as entries worthy of BBTxx, but...I'd love to have more entries here going forward.

Here's to 2021.

Or some laughable shit like that...